Heard sat down for an exclusive interview, her first, with NBC News’ Savannah Guthrie, part of which aired on the US. Today program on Tuesday.
The actress has not shied away from her claims that Depp had physically and emotionally abused her during their marriage.
“Until the day I die, I will stand by every word of my testimony,” she told Guthrie.
Heard said she was also aware of the negative light the case was shining on both her and her ex-husband.
“I wouldn’t blame the average person for looking at this and how it’s treated and seeing it as Hollywood candies at their worst,” she told Guthrie.
“But what people don’t understand is that it’s actually so much bigger than that.”
Heard said she believed “the vast majority of this trial took place on social media,” citing the many memes and spoofs of the lawsuit circulating on TikTok and other platforms.
She said the jury was “not immune” to those less flattering portraits of her.
“I think even the most well-meaning juror could not possibly have avoided this,” she said.
Guthrie urged Heard if she had abused Depp after the Aquarius star said she never got into a physical fight with Depp, despite the audio being played during the trial that indicated she had.
Guthrie pointed out that Heard’s alleged aggression was “black and white” via a court transcript.
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“As I testified in the stands about this, when your life is at stake, you don’t just take the blame for things you shouldn’t be blamed for,” she said.
“But if you’re in a violent dynamic psychologically, emotionally, and physically, you don’t have the resources that, say, you or I have the luxury of saying, ‘hey, this is black or white,’ because it’s anything but when you live in it.”
Heard admitted that she “did and said terrible things throughout the relationship.”
“I was behaving terribly, almost unrecognizable to myself,” she said.
“This was the most humiliating and horrible thing I’ve ever experienced.”
Depp had sued his ex-wife for $50 million, claiming she defamed him in a 2018 Washington Post op-ed in which she wrote about her experience of domestic violence.
Depp was not mentioned by name in Heard’s piece, but he said it cost him work. Heard sued him for $100 million.
Both Heard and Depp were found liable for libel in dueling lawsuits against each other.
However, the jury awarded Depp significantly more damages.
Heard said during her interview that in the days leading up to the trial, she had to walk past blocks of Depp supporters on her way to court, carrying signs scorning her with sentences including “Death to Amber.”
The courtroom was packed with “vocal, energetic” fans of Depp’s “Pirates of the Caribbean” character, she said.
“This was the most humiliating and horrible thing I’ve ever experienced,” Heard said.
“I’ve never felt so removed from my own humanity. I felt less than human.”
Heard said she believes the verdict could have been different if “very important pieces of evidence” from a British libel suit Depp lost in 2020 against a British tabloid that called him a “woman-beater” was allowed to be filed in her case.
When asked if she thought Depp’s lawyers were better than hers, Heard said his lawyers were “better distracting the jury from the real issues.”
Heard’s team has said it plans to appeal the ruling.
Guthrie said she interviewed Heard more than a week after the trial ended.
Prior to an earlier interview with two of Depp’s attorneys, Benjamin Chew and Camille Vasquez, Guthrie revealed that her husband, public relations consultant Michael Feldman, had provided consulting services to Depp and his team, but not in connection with her interview.